That is the understatement of the year but how I have felt for the last few months. it is one of the biggest reasons I decided to take a little bit of a break and work on things behind the scenes. I felt that if I didn’t have the deadlines looming I could get more done. At least here I could. You know what? It worked too. I managed to do more here in two days than I did in an entire month with deadlines.
I have no idea why other than the fact that I could work on things when I found the time. Surprisingly I found the time. I did most all of the new branding, colors, theme, etc in one afternoon. Just a few hours. Then I walked away and came back to it later whenever I felt like I could. Like I said I ended up doing it all in a few days. That just left the posts and updating older posts. I told myself that I would work on them when I found the time.
I spent a full Saturday after that writing posts. Figuring I would just draft them and come back. In the end I wrote six months worth of posts. All I have to do is get a bunch of them edited, decide if I am keeping any of them. I know there are most likely a post or two that will end up in the trash.
My biggest point behind this post is to point out that sometimes it is the deadlines (real or imagined) that create stress in our lives. The “if I don’t do this I’m a failure” that cause us to fail. I know that it one of the biggest reasons I fail at some things. Honestly it may be the reasons I fail at a lot of the things in my life. I create a deadline that I logically know I will never be able to meet. Then I fail and berate myself to the point of falling into the abyss of my depression. I am a failure. At least by the not meeting the deadline standard.
Deadlines that clients or partnerships have set I have no problem meeting ever. It is only my deadlines that I can’t meet. There has to be a larger meaning behind it and I will make sure to bring it up with my therapist the next time I have an appointment.