Tomorrow is my birthday! I know it’s exciting. NOT! Well, sort of. The truth is once you reach a certain age birthdays don’t thrill you as much as they did when you were a child. For me growing up my sister’s birthday is ten days before mine so we always shared a birthday celebration.
Yep! We had to share which was so unfair in my opinion. Although my younger brother had it worst. His birthday is two days before Christmas. Our older brother’s is in May so he got to celebrate all by himself. See what I mean about unfair?
This year I turn 44 years old. I’m almost fifty yet most days I don’t feel I’m even forty yet. There are days when like I’m eighty as well. I don’t dread getting older because I feel like I getting a little wiser each year. At least I hope that I’m getting older. I don’t feel my age because my mother still treats me like I am a child most days. I know that sounds like a teenager complaining but you have no idea. I clean and goes behind to find all the things wrong. God love her there are moments when I want to throw a tantrum just to see what she would say.
I think a lot of it for her is she doesn’t know what to do with herself anymore. She has been that way since my father passed away. Although I worry now that she may be in the early stages of dementia. She has a doctor’s appointment to check for this soon.
So what am I doing for my big birthday bash? Not much at all to be honest. I’m making a dinner and a dessert. I haven’t decided if I’m doing a cake or a trifle but plan on doing something sweet for the family. I’m not sue what I’m making until the day of. I know the family wants cake but I feel like I want something different. I have discovered that as I’ve gotten older cake doesn’t appeal to me the way it would have at one time.
Truthfully most sweets don’t appeal to me as much as they once did. I just don’t have the taste for them. My plans for my birthday weekend is to do nothing major. I just want to take the weekend off and spend some quiet time with the family. Boring I know but that is my happy place!