Is God Mad at Me?

I cannot tell you how many times I have asked myself that very question. There are moments when it appears as though he is. For me, this is one of my biggest struggles of faith. I have a hard time when things seems to go horribly. I always fall back on the God is angry at me mentality. Some days it is difficult to remember that God gets angry at sin and not me. It is easy for us to fall into this pattern. I have heard plenty of people over the years say whatever was happening was God’s punishment for their sins. Maybe their prayers weren’t answered because God didn’t think they were worthy. We have all thought those things. We, as humans, will continue to think these thoughts until the end of time.

Job

The book of Job tells the same story. Job felt (and was persuaded by his friends) that God wasn’t with him or was punishing him. He lost everything, his family died, and had to have had the worst luck of anyone in the bible. God was with him the entire time. While he suffered, God was there even if it didn’t feel as though he was. God showed up and gave Job more than he had.

Life Happens

As trivial and mundane as it sounds, life happens. Things don’t always go our way and no amount of prayer will change it. I believe that our path is laid out for us when we are born. Now, we may not take the path as it is given since we have free will. We will take detours because of choices we make, but we will be where God intended us to go. Unless we allow sin to overtake our lives and ultimately our paths.

Talk it Out

When moments like these arise, I spend more time talking with God. The only way I can find the answers I need is by asking the questions. I will ask God why he is angry with me? I don’t always get the answer I am looking for but nine times out of ten I will get the response I need. The response to remember that he is not angry with me regardless of how much it feels as though he is.

Earlier, I said God gets angry with the sin in our lives and not us. So what can we do about the sin? The simple answer would be don’t commit sin. That would be like asking humans not to breathe. We can’t help but commit sin. Even when we make every attempt to refrain from sin we still commit it. That is why God said we needed to confess our sins and repent.

As a Catholic, I go to confession regularly. I have found that I confess many of my sins, especially some smaller ones, in my prayers and conversations with God daily. Talking the smaller stuff out with him daily lightens my load. At least that it how it feels to me. I can go to bed and not feel as burdened with a million minor things. God listens to us even when we feel as though he doesn’t.

8 Comments

  1. This is a great post and I’m the same way – always wondering if God is mad at me when things are not going good.

    1. It is so hard not to think that. Even though I know that’s not the truth, it just feels that ways when things are difficult or go wrong.

      1. I have these same thoughts and figured that God gave up on me, because I was a horrible person. Instead of going to Him, I left the church, left my faith. I realized years later, we are all sinners. God loves each of us.

        1. He does love each of us and none of our sins are too big for him to forgive. I always say one of the worst and best gifts God ever gave us was free will. He gave us the tools to reject him but gave them to us none the less. That to me says so much about God. He wants to us to find our way knowing we will take our anger out on him most of the time. Knowing that we could and would turn away from him.

  2. Oh Lord…I’ve asked this more times than I would like to admit. I kind of feel like I’m stuck right now in my life. I’m sure everyone is at a low point with our world at the moment. Sometimes I feel like I’m praying and praying but maybe he’s not listening or doesn’t really care about me. I know that’s not true…it’s just where my mind goes sometimes.

    1. I think it is where most people’s minds go. It’s just human nature and I admit some days it’s harder than others.

  3. Very interesting article to say the least

  4. wonderful post, I too ask many times if God is mad at me, too much sorrow in this world

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