Maybe Next Summer

I had planned for this summer to be the summer that I bought a bathing suit in a smaller size. That I walked the track with my brother and didn’t get winded. That I did it finally! It wasn’t, not even a little bit. Well that’s not entirely true. I did do some things that I hadn’t planned on nor were they things I would have done in the past.

Bathing Suit

I did purchase a new one but I had to go up a size. However I am in one of those weird half sizes so going up meant I had to get it adjusted a little to fit. So this was a complete failure. Yet, I felt more confident in this swimsuit than I have in all of the past ones. So maybe that is something to take away from it. Maybe it’s not so much about going up or down a size as it’s about feeling good about myself.

Walking Track

I didn’t get to give this a try this year thanks to Covid-19. We didn’t want to get out there where a bunch of people were so I don’t know if I would have managed to walk it without being winded. I think I may have done better this year than in years past but not as well as I would have hoped. It is something that I will have to wait until next year (fingers crossed) to find out.

Shorts & Dresses

Every year I tell myself I am going to buy a sundress and a little pair of shorts to wear. Every year I convince myself I am too fat for that. This year not only did I buy both of those but I actually wore them as well. I don’t think I looked to bad either. I will admit that I wore a girdle under the sun dress to smooth out all of the lines and fat rolls. I’m just being honest, I don’t go anywhere without that baby on if I need it.

Yard Work

I hate doing it and at home I have someone I pay to come and do it. Yet, when I was at my brother’s I took the time to not only help him but to also help clean a trail. It was hot and I got sweat in places I don’t thin you should get it but I can honestly say I feel as though I have accomplish something monumental. Like I climbed a mountain or something. Will this lead to yard work getting done at my home? I don’t know but it is certainly a start for me.

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  1. Liking the honesty. I feel that working up a sweat is an accomplishment, now, and the shower afterwards to rinse off is refreshing!

    1. Thank you Sandi! I love taking a cool shower after I have been sweating. There is just something that makes me feel so good afterwards.

  2. I need to get out and walk the track too! I know it would make me feel better,but is much more fun when you have some people you can go with. With the Covid its hard right now!

    1. It is hard and I don’t want to use Covid as an excuse. However, there were so many people at the track when I was at my brothers we just couldn’t risk it.

  3. Most of us don’t feel confident in a swimsuit, but I think that if too much fat is what bothers you, you have to put in the work to get rid of it, you can’t just complain about it and think you were unlucky to not have been born with a fast metabolism. It’s just that the average human is lazy and can hide under baggy clothes, while models and celebrities have the incentive of being criticized harshly by a large number of people (not just the ones in their immediate vicinity) if they “let themselves go” as the haters like to put it. One of my favorite singers said in an interview that they would have definitely gotten fat if their career didn’t involve being in the public eye all the time. Having a role model can be a strong inspiration. There are some artists in the kpop industry who were overweight before starting their careers and have inspired fans to improve their lifestyles. Whenever you’re feeling down on yourself, you have to remember that the media portrays people as near perfect, but there’s always some type of “magic” (photoshopping, angles, makeup, styling) involved, ’cause no human being rolls out of bed ready to hit the red carpet.

    1. I love this! You’re right even when I was skinny I didn’t feel comfortable in a swimsuit. It has taken me a long time to be comfortable in my own skin and I think, for me at least, that has played a part in my getting heavier. It was easier to retreat within myself and overeat than do something about it. Add in mental illness and you got a recipe for disaster. For me personally, I have accepted that I am never going to be stick thin or even skinny. I’m working towards being healthier, losing weight so I can move more freely and feeling good.

    1. Bless you! My brother loves yard work as well. I just can’t seem to enjoy it, it feels like so much work to me. I am attempting to do a little more. I’m building a sort of rock garden that I promise to share once it gets a little further along.

  4. I’m one of those people with a huge yard and yes, oh God YES, it can be an incredible amount of work. Sometimes it seems like it’s nothing but work. I do have to say though, the payoff is also huge. I’m completely surrounded by beauty that I help create and maintain. That sense of immense pride every time I smell the flowers or freshly mowed grass is huge and well worth it!

    1. I love that you love to do yard work! I think I dislike it so much because it was one of our chores growing up so now I equate it with so much work.

  5. All worthy goals – but I think in this moment in time, it’s just as important to be patient and kind with ourselves. Intentions were great, but we can’t help what we can’t control/see. I have faith that you’ll get back on track once the ship is righted. Be kind to yourself and give it your all with your next opportunity!

  6. I hope you are right. Thankfully I have faith, but I really do not believe we will ever get back to normal again.
    Sad situation.
    Be safe.

    1. Hopefully we will get back to as close to normal as we can. I think we all will do things a bit more differently from here on out but we can overcome this.

  7. I used to lap swim frequently. Now that I can’t because of Covid, I haven’t been doing much of anything for fitness. I really need to

  8. I have found that you set out to conquer one goal at a time and many times you end up conquering more than one.

    I have started riding a stationary bike and I try to increase my distance a little each week.

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